Last Saturday, I saw a call from this long lost friend that I have not been seeing for like 5 years after he left Penang. I picked the call and as usual the familiar voice greeted me “Lxx Shxn Shxn…as his first few words. @_@ That is the usual way my ‘kiasu’ housemates have greeted me. Haha, it reminded me of my time in UTM, always “piah” in my studies. Anyway, I decided to get together with this old friend, B, and SH on Sunday after my church service.
On that day, we met up at the Eastern Wishes restaurant in iAvenue. This friend of mine dressed up in formal clothing. It was kind of weird when all you remember is him slacking in the way he dressed.. you know, Intel’s engineer. But up to this day, he was someone with two professional papers in finance as well as the CEO of a factory in KL selling medical disposal stuff J He is no longer the “super-sensitive + ever-suspicious” guy I once knew. He is more mature than he was :P well, happy for him. Oh yeah, he came with another friend CS, also an engineer from Intel. I forgot him actual name although he was my current housemates’ friends and coursemates (all Intelians). Anyway, we talked how our life is now, the silly things we did back in uni, the “four pretty gals” (I didn’t know my group was having such a high visibility back then *_*), how I managed to win over CS on the warcraft game…etc
Well, the main point started when B asked me what I planned to study since I told couple of them that I want to further my studies. Well, I told them I wanted to go CCSF (City College of San Francisco) for my chef degree. However, due to economy crisis, I am unable to proceed with my dream’s step, thus, engaged in a local culinary and baking school instead. Then B asked me what I planned to do with that and I explained that it is my dream to open up a bakery shop. This is what he replied “I believe and trust you are able in making it successful. I have read many woman entrepreneurs’ life stories on how they become successful. You have those characteristics”. And I was like “Wow”. That words added up to my drive strength (not I/O related ok? :P). I never know I will ever hear it from him since he always has a very high standard set for everything he sees. Actually I know many people have seen something in me especially on my determination, independent and “never-give up” attitude. That’s how I become one of the top students, that’s how I become one of the top engineers in Altera TD (Haha, I even rejected Intel’s offer for grade 7 position :P), that’s how I gained recognition from my bosses which leads to my position today, that’s how I build 8 ppl transceiver team. I always stand and fight my battle until I conquered it. I still remember my team-mates used to say “to the most diligent gal I have ever known”. Haha..and another friend of mine who said “you are like a soldier that do not care what is in ahead of you and you just “choong arr!!! And fight”. :P And also, my SJ manager who said she only trust my capability in handling high priority stuff in PG as compared to other team-mates.. @_@
Though, that’s what they have commented about me, I have very low confidence in myself. I am afraid too in losing, afraid in failing, afraid in falling. Maybe this is why I reminded myself to always do my best in everything including my family, my friends, my relationship, my church and my career. But can I ever do the same for my dream? Can I ever make do it well like what I have done with others? I have a dream, this dream…not just a dream of self-satisfaction but a dream to reaching out to the needy thru my effort…to make a difference in people life. ^_^
